I guess I'm feeling a little lovelorn at the moment.
Maybe its the book I just read, maybe its the films I just watched, maybe it's the weather. Or maybe it's just one of those things.
The book I just read - well, the book I just read was AMAZING. Not in a 'A Thousand Splendid Suns' way - it wasn't a dark story about the brightness of hope, or anything like that. It was a romance novel. Set in the 1950s. But it was SO good. And the main character was just like Rachel - absurdly tall, and lacking confidence with it, but actually, the one who won in the end. She got the guy.
The films I just watched - hmmm. I had a Truffaut marathon with Peppy and Tom, as 'revision' for our French lit. exam next Thursday (so soon! gah!). So we watched 'Jules et Jim', which is all about love and unhappy couples and has a really sad ending, and then we watched 'Le Dernier Metro' which is also about love and couples and has a quite happy ending. But there's a lot of loving going on, is the point I'm making.
The weather - yes. Well. The weather. I am in England, I guess. I shouldn't expect *too* much of the weather when we are not even into June yet. But really, raining ALL afternoon? Frankly, it just isn't on. I call it ridiculous. But its the sort of weather that makes you sit inside and stare out the window and wonder a little bit on all the things you are missing out on.
Maybe it *is* just one of those things. And though I may feel a little lovelorn, its only a very general feeling, because I haven't got anyone to attach it to. Except most of my friends, who I haven't seen or properly talked to for nearly a week and I miss 
I'm afraid of losing them like I seem to have lost my friends from Perse Girls. Why am I so rubbish at holding on to people? Why am I so rubbish at communicating?
Why am I so whiney tonight?
2008-06-01 @ 11:40